Balance
“The drugs make you numb.” How often I’ve heard people tell me this. But when I’m not on them they say, “You’re overly emotional, pull yourself together.” I can’t win, and I know I’m not alone. Balancing one’s mental health and life is like walking on a tightrope, granted life is like... [Read more...]
My sister
The thing I hate most about my mental illness is how it affects the relationships I have with those I love. I have a younger sister, she’s eight and I’m twenty two. I don’t go home much anymore, I have an apartment so I don’t need to. I miss my family terribly and they only live twenty minutes away. I especially miss my... [Read more...]
Help Across the Board
Two things that I’ve found which help across the board of mental illnesses independent of medicine and therapy are having a daily routine and regular exercise. Another thing that seems to help is to force yourself to do the things you used to love or be interested in like hobbies and friends. This is especially true with depression and bipolar. ... [Read more...]
Avoidence
Do you ever just want to sink? To disappear for a while? To get better and then go back to where you left off as if you hadn’t skipped a beat? Pretending you never were gone? This is way it feels sometimes when it gets too heavy to deal with the back lash from my actions when I am unstable. I often find myself resisting eating humble pie. Over... [Read more...]
Damage Control
I hate it when you can feel yourself starting to have a mood swing you can’t do anything about. It’s like frost, starting at the edges of your consciousness, slowly working its way across your mind till you’re blind and the mood swing is all there is. Sometimes one can fight it and win, but sometimes there’s not a damn thing... [Read more...]
Change of Plans
Mood swings suck, especially when you can feel them coming on and you can’t do a darn thing about them. Then everything you had in store for the day has to be altered. I am in the midst of feeling another mood swing come on. I wish I knew better coping skills. Read More →
Depression at the moment
Thought of the day, Depression sucks, as does the feelings of inadequacy and isolation that go along with it. It’s so hard to get up and do anything, like walking through taffy, living like this is so draining and so hard, even the simplest thing can be exhausting. Then there is the fear of people not understanding, of being judged or of being... [Read more...]
Coping with Insomnia
One of the side effects of the medication I’m on is periodic insomnia and restlessness. Sometimes I wake up and just have to take a walk at five in the morning, or I wake up and it takes hours to get back to sleep. There are a few things I do that help me clam down and get back to sleep: taking a walk, taking a warm bath, drinking chamomile... [Read more...]
A Little About Me and My Bipolar
I’ve been diagnosed as having bipolar/a mood disorder for nearly two years, but I’ve been living with it all my life. I was just recently diagnosed because I’ve been under a lot of stress lately thanks to trying to work my way through collage and get two unrelated degrees, but the disorder has always been there. It was misdiagnosed... [Read more...]
A little about this site
First off, this site isn’t going to give you all the answers to bipolar or the depression that goes with it. This site is about life with bipolar and how I and others have learned to cope with it’s up and downs. This site is about support, sharing information and communicating in a safe and space. The goal of this site is to help people... [Read more...]
