A Little About Me and My Bipolar
I’ve been diagnosed as having bipolar/a mood disorder for nearly two years, but I’ve been living with it all my life. I was just recently diagnosed because I’ve been under a lot of stress lately thanks to trying to work my way through collage and get two unrelated degrees, but the disorder has always been there. It was misdiagnosed when I was younger as having OCD, anxiety and then depression, but none of the solutions for these disorders really helped me, sometimes they even made things worse. When I was young I threw tantrums nearly everyday. As I got older I learned that it was inappropriate and unjust for me to vent my mood swings on my loved one and so, as an adolescent/teen living in the country, I would run into the woods and scream, not coming home until I was exhausted. Today, as a young adult living in the city, I have to relearn how to cope with my mood swings. I have, unfortunately, taken to turning my anger in on myself and isolating myself during and after mood swings. This causes me to feel very alone, self loathing and for the disorder to, in a way, rule me. I don’t come to this site with all the answers, I come looking for help and looking to help. The hope behind this site is that the interactions that will take place on this site will serve to not only help me learn to cope better, but will serve to help a multitude of people in the same boat cope better and learn to live their lives again.
