Bipolar Frustrations » You’re Not Alone http://bipolarfrustrations.com Sun, 20 Dec 2009 20:57:24 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9 en hourly 1 My sister http://bipolarfrustrations.com/my-sister/ http://bipolarfrustrations.com/my-sister/#comments Mon, 02 Feb 2009 21:06:17 +0000 hallie http://bipolarfrustrations.com/?p=31 The thing I hate most about my mental illness is how it affects the relationships I have with those I love.  I have a younger sister, she’s eight and I’m twenty two.  I don’t go home much anymore, I have an apartment so I don’t need to, but I miss my family terribly and they only live twenty minutes away.  I especially miss my sister,  who I would do anything for.  However, I’m too afraid to go home, fearing I’ll have an episode there, she is too young to understand what’s going on and she looks up to me.  I would rather be a wonderful idea/memory to her than something that is confusing and frustrating currently.  When she gets a little older I won’t be so distant because she’ll be able to understand better,but i don’t want to put her through something like this now, I love her too much for that, Iwould rather remove myself from her life at the moment and love her from afar than put her through this. I hope she’ll understand when she’s older and hope beyond hope she’s been spared having a mental illness herself. I don’t want her to go through what I’ve gone thorugh and am going through.

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]]> http://bipolarfrustrations.com/my-sister/feed/ 2 A Little About Me and My Bipolar http://bipolarfrustrations.com/a-little-about-me-and-my-bipolar/ http://bipolarfrustrations.com/a-little-about-me-and-my-bipolar/#comments Wed, 21 Jan 2009 23:40:30 +0000 hallie http://bipolarfrustrations.com/?p=8 I’ve been diagnosed as having bipolar/a mood disorder for nearly two years, but I’ve been living with it all my life.  I was just recently diagnosed because I’ve been under a lot of stress lately thanks to trying to work my way through collage and get two unrelated degrees, but the disorder has always been there.  It was misdiagnosed when I was younger as having OCD, anxiety and then depression, but none of the solutions for these disorders really helped me, sometimes they even made things worse.  When I was young I threw tantrums nearly everyday.  As I got older I learned that it was inappropriate and unjust for me to vent my mood swings on my loved one and so, as an adolescent/teen living in the country, I would run into the woods and scream, not coming home intil I was exhausted.  Today, as a young adult living in the city, I have to relearn how to cope with my mood swings.  I have, unfortunately, taken to turningmy anger in on myself and isolating myself during and after mood swings.  This cuases me to feel very alone, self loathing and for the disorder to, in a way, rule me.  I don’t come to this site with all the answers, I come looking for help and looking to help.  The hope behind this site is that the interactions that will take place on this site will serve to  not only help me learn to cope better, but will serve to help a multitude of people in the same boat cope better and learn to live thier lives again.

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